This place no longer holds any meaning for me

Five more months to go, before i leave this small sunny little island. Like CE said, this is the place i was born, where i slim down from a plump kid to a slim lad. Indeed there are so many memories. But sometimes i just wish i could leave this place as soon as possible, god knows why i am feeling this way. Don't count the days; make the days count..

I've just gotten myself another textbook: Basic Principles and Calculations in Chemical Engineering. Now i am just left with Engineering maths, however the book isn't cheap. Even a second hand cost over $80.

Right now, I wish i am in somewhere airconditioned, sitting down on a comfortable sofa, drinking. Macallan!!!

Darah

I paid $10 to scare myself. Guess Darah is a pretty good movie for girls who want to lose weight badly, makes you feel like puking out whatever you have just ate and loss of appetite. It isnt that gruelsome entirely, only a few scenes.

The worst scene in the movie is all the baby skulls and bones on the floor. Freaks me out. I know its not the actual bones, but still the thought of it is just disgusting.

Oh and the seats at the 9th level of Cineleisure are really huge and comfortable.

Your eyes can tell no lies.

It may seem obvious to every starry-eyed lover but psychologists have now proved it to be true – if you want someone to find you attractive, look them in the face and smile. A strong jaw for men, high cheek-bones in women, a perfectly-shaped nose or unblemished skin may be the physical signs of sexual attractiveness, but it is the gaze of the eyes that really counts.

Direction is more important than speed

If we are facing in the right direction,
All we have to do is keep on walking
Sad to say, its going nowhere.

Hazy day

It's a hazy day.

I guessed it's all because of the heavy haze from our dearest neighbour, that i fell sick. I was feeling lethargic throughout the day. Feeling so warm all over and i knew something wasn't right.
Great, initially wanted to meet up with the gang. And it was Gayson who initiated going to Butter Factory tonight. This gay only went clubbing like less than 3 times throughout his life?! What occasion is it today.

My friend ordered an entire chicken today with only three people eating. Thats like half a chicken each and the chicken wasn't small, mind you. I already had so much chicken and braised pork the day before. Nonetheless, the three of us still managed to clear the entire plate of chicken.

Cooincidentally, the dessert stall (蜜蜂园甜品) from 抢摊大行动2 was beside us. I saw the last episode few days back and this stall managed to get all 11 chef signatures and designated as model student of the "graduation". MUST EAT! I had the bobocha while the two of them got Cheng tng and Mango Pomelo. I must say the Durian puree with ice look so tempting and it smells real good. But it will be suicidal for me to get it, bound to have sore throat, cough, fever and flu.

Anyway, our dear neighbour then followed up with another gift. Tremors. The entire building was like swaying and shaking vigorously for a long duration. I thought i was giddy, but it wasnt.

Still not feeling well, decide against meeting them. It will be so nice to meet up for a drink.

"Outward beauty is not enough; to be attractive. one must use words, wit, playfulness, sweet-talk, and laughter to transcend the gifts of Nature"
-Roman satirist Petronius

You are so good at it! No wonder.

Relationships FAQ

If life were easy and understandable, here is how the perfect relationship would go:

1)You are on your own and feeling OK with yourself, but not really seeing anyone.
2)You meet someone you would like to get to know better.
3)The two of you decide to go out together.
4)You both have a really good time on your first date. You can't believe how much you have in common.
5)You go out again, and again it is great.
6)After going out together several times you both realize you have found someone special.
7)You fall in love and continue dating steadily.
8)You decide to get engaged.
9)You plan the wedding together and await the day.
10)You get married.
11)You live happily ever after.

But life is rarely easy or understandable. So things never seem to work out according to this list.

Trust
Relationships cannot grow or have a chance of becoming happy if there's no trust. Trust is something that grows when people see that they will not be let down or hurt by another. As i always like to say "With Trust, come Freedom".

Greener Grass Syndrome
The grass is always greener on the other side? No matter who you go out with, someone prettier/handsomer/smarter/stronger/more caring/etc. is going to come along. Your job in life, in conjunction with your partner, is to learn to deal with these normal human flaws that make all of us unique.

Out of Love
There are situations where you can look at your boyfriend or girlfriend, you can "feel" that "something" is seriously amiss and you can say to him or her, "Is something wrong? If something is wrong please tell me and I will fix it." And the person will look you right in the eye and say, "Nothing is wrong. I'm fine." And then a week later he or she dumps you and you find out there has been "someone else" for a month. Most people experience something like this at least once in their lives, and it is bewildering.

Why does that kind of stuff happen? It happens because relationships are random. There is no explaining why someone falls in love with you in the first place, and there is no explaining why someone falls out of love with you, either. It just happens. When it happens, the only thing you can do is accept it, be thankful for the good times and walk away. That can be incredibly hard to do, especially the first few times you get dumped; but it is the only thing you can do.

Rejecting a Crush
Always be honest. Never lie to someone who is crushing on you or lead them on. Don’t lie just to “spare his feelings,” because if he finds out, he will be more hurt that you lied. Respect his feelings and respect him as a person.

A Relationship is similar to an investment. Money, Time, Effort and Youth. Of course like any other investment, there are risks involved.

To the most important person in my life

Happy birthday Mom. I am not somebody who can easily express my love, even to someone like you who is that close to me, just like you. You are the most important person in my life. You've forgiven me countless times no matter what wrong things i've done in the past. I still remembered when i was young, i threatened to send you to the old folks home when i grow up, thinking about it, i was so stupid and i know those kind of words hurt a lot.

I will treasure my life not because of anything else, but the pain you went through to bring me to this world and the hardship you went through to raise me up, not forgetting your effort in keeping the family together. Years past, i've seen your wrinkles start appearing, skin starts to crease, your hair starts to grey , yet you never once complained. I know of the pain and suffering you went through silently.

I know you dont want anything in return.
You just want me to be a useful person to this society.

i wonder to myself what i can do for you..
Study hard.
Dont give up, No matter how difficult it is.
Take care of you when you grew old,
Just like how you took care of me when i was young.

Berry Bold

Yes, i am officially on the Blackberry bandwagon. Yet to have time to download applications and figuring out the functions of the phone.

My tongue is hurting badly. Think i scalded them while eating. It is hurting when i eat and drink. The weather keeps changing from rainy to sunny, to and fro. I guess many people are falling sick because of it. Drink more water, boys and girls, aunties and uncles.

Do you know what i really want the most?

Blackberry Bold, you are the winner!

Yes, finally decided that i want the Blackberry Bold.

Actually HTC Hero is a better buy for me currently, because i don't have much friend on BB. So pointless to get BIS too. However it can be useful once i go oversea. But HTC Hero is so cool and hot, it is going to be a great competitor for iPhone.

Oh, an all black Blackberry Bold seems cool. Came across this site where they offer aftermarket parts and accessories for Bold. The black trackball is so sexy.

My throat is hurting, which i think is due to the KTV session yesterday coupled with the greasy and unhealthy buffet. Forcing myself to drink gallons of water, hopefully i will be fine tomorrow.

Oh my, the next Toto jackpot on this friday is a whopping $9.7 million. I am day dreaming already, imagine what will i do with the money. Maybe get an Audi TT, R8 will be a waste of money :(


Don't worry, i am not suprised!

Anger derived from Expectations?

“Anger always comes from frustrated expectations”

So true. Well i guess thats human nature.

Sigh, working next monday again. May not be a bad thing as well, as i have no plan to spend my holiday.

Freddy Kng flying off to UK on 20th Sep, in three days time. I doubt i will be free to meet him.

"We only part to meet again”

Thats life.

Craving for some meatballs and fried chicken wings from IKEA. :(~~

Daunting

The ideal of a trip oversea alone seems tempting. Well, chatted briefly with Qing Lin two days ago. Got to say i am so envious of her, she had travelled to so many places on earth. I saw some of her photos she took during her last trip to UK recently, such a beautiful place. And she just went for another dive trip again. Diving is so fun :~, giving one an opportunity to be so close to the beautiful corals and cute fishes in the sea.

Oh my, i just cant wait to step into the working society too and start earning money to fund for my oversea trips. Anyway, I've already shortlisted a few places to go for this year already.

Shortlist:
Hong Kong:
Initially planned to go there this year, but yet to find khakis. Going there alone seems dumb.
Vietnam:
Great, i've always wanted to go there. And can travel there alone too!
Thailand:
Oh well, my cousin asked me and my sister to join her during november.
UK:
Can go there to visit Freddy Kng, but the expensive ticket not forgetting expenses and accomodation will kill me. Nobody to show me around too. :(
China:
Seems cool, and it will not be that difficult to travel there alone.

Sigh, soon Freddy Kng will be going over to Reading for further studies.

Now wondering what to do for Saturday. Sigh.
Super Import Nights?
Shisha and beer with Soccer on a Saturday night?
Stay home and play my Xbox 360?

Crap in my mouth

Ughh!!

Was given this chewing gum by my colleague after i gave her my sweets. Its really nice and the packaging is unique with bronze color. The taste is similar to apricot. I was chewing it until something bad starts to happen.

It starts dissolving into a chalky and murky fluid! Grossed me out totally, but i cant spit it out as i was onboard the bus. I had to bear the mixture inside my mouth till i alighted where i spat the chalky and murky fluid out. I guess chewing gums like this helps people who accidentally swallow their chewing gum. Well at least they could list down the time before it start dissolving.

Woah, saw Kanye West doing his usual "Pattern" again in the MTV Awards 2009. What he did to Taylor Swift was unforgivable. Celebrity should be a role model for the public, nice example.

Link: Kanye West is a pussy

Hmm, HTC Diamond 2 seems like a nice phone too. Seems like everyone in 败犬女皇 is using that phone.

Stomach Ache , ugh.

Got this real bad stomach ache today.
It's either the Bee hoon goreng mutton at Casurina or the big pau i ate today. zZ.

Worst still, i was threatened by CE and Ker not to be an A380, if not... I will attend definitely, if nothing goes wrong, i will not make any plans on that day. Anyway CE doesnt have any right to call me A380, afterall shes the biggest aeroplane of all. Oh no, she houses all the planes in Singapore right, nearly forgotten about her nickname.

LG Crystal or Blackberry Bold. I still cant decide yet. But i do believe that the price of Crystal is going to drop drastically, just wait and see. The plastic back of the crystal is a huge turn off. But the Blackberry Bold though is sexy, has a much bigger and heavier body.

I realised that i have lots of R&B songs in my iPod touch, was listening to them when i was on my way back home on the bus. Really miss going to Butter Factory on Wednesday and Double O on every friday the last time, not forgetting alleybar, which is so long ago. But it seems like with my non-existent social network, finding people to go clubbing is so hard.

Oh, its a tuesday tomorrow and i will be staying in the office the whole day. Boring. At least there is something to look forward; accompanying Zhao Ming to xian his Pinnacle "chai".

PS: Congratulation to people who i told the tip to yesterday.
If you're feeling generous, please donate a small amount of winnings to me.

List: Short term plans

Short term:

-Dedicate time to study everyday
*OTOT Bridging lessons. Got to change my mindset (Student) too already.

Start applying for accommodation
*I better start to apply. Procrastinating. :(

-Work and work for money
*Money! No money makes me unhappy :(

Treat some people better
*Sorry for people i've mistreated in the past. I wish to be a better person.

-Expand social network
*My social network has been shrinking like nobody business. :(

-More run and mileage under my belt
*Nike run coming up! I want to be in the top 20%! heh.

-More wine and shisha session
*Shiraz, Riesling, Chardonnay, Pinot Noir and Champagne. I don't care who you are, i am gonna drink all of you till the last drop. MUAHAHAHAHAHA. Anyway it's the company that matter the most. Stay away, hangovers.

-Second hand textbooks
*More and cheaper please.

-A new compact camera
*Was thinking of a mid range DSLR, but i am going oversea soon and my sister is gonna get one already. But hey, there are few compacts that have near DSLR features already, but they are all at the range of 800. :(

-A Laptop
*Asus U Series looks awesome on paper and its light!

-A new handphone
*Blackberry bold is awesome, LG Crystal is fine too although no GPS and it falls below my expectations too.

-Oversea trip
*Maybe a solo trip to vietnam. Was hoping to join as volunteer to help out in third world country. Seeing them smile is enough :)

-STRIKE TOTO ah
*I've been waiting for my MX-5 like nobody business already.

The rest just leave them to fate.

Lastly, treat myself better.
Be responsible for my own happiness,
because "i" am worth it!